kaseypie in da house!

the name finally fits! tonight baked my very first pie. it's a crumbled-apple pie from So.Living! it is super simple too. the book is like $35, but it is absolutely the best $35 i've ever spent. from the specialty cakes (like the kahlua cake) to roasted herb turkey, it has everything! i'm going to bring the book home with me in july and make treats ( i am of course assuming that we would all hang out as a family, and that just never happens... : ) )
I am working on a ME puzzle, which i know sounds like i'm 80, but i really like puzzles. anyway, it's a cute little ME girl in an inner tube with big green glasses and a big straw hat in a pool. I think ME is brilliant for starters, but there was something that kept drawing me to this puzzle. i've worked on it for two days and it has dawned on me. the girl looks like what i think maelie will look like at 5. she has a sweet little mouth and is just so dramatic in her glasses! i stopped mid-piece and teared up at what kind of fun little girl maelie will turn out to be. even if she doesn't have her aunt's flare for the dramatic, she is still going to be so incredible! i miss her so much. every time her little face crosses my mind i tear up. i have her as my desktop talking to the bear that rob and i gave her, and i have to admit that rob has walked in on me talking to the screen like she can hear me! she's not special or anything, her pictures just happen to cover my entire freezer door! I'll see you in July my sweet baby girl. xoxo

chastity bono

so talk about patience. yesterday i ranted about how i need to change my spirit, and today i thought it would be great if i changed my hair too. new look, new outlook?! wow. bad decision. i just went into great clips for a quick chop chop. when i went in i had a feeling, but i ignored it. never again. the GUY would not stop cutting. i almost literally do not have more than an inch and half of hair on the back and sides, but the top is longer. like sienna miller. it's disgusting. i called my mom and cried and rob, my sweet husband, told me that i looked like chastity bono... but not to worry, i could probably get more chicks than he could with this hair cut... he has no soul. but i went home and put alot of product in it and styled it up and it looks better. a challenge. i've never turned down a challenge...

out with the old

i've made a very important and big decision: it is time for an over-haul. I have been so negative about being here and about life in general (well, except Mae). i have fought with the husband and myself and God so many times here. and today i have to ask myself, why am i fighting? i know that's pretty dr. phil, but i'm tired. i've been fighting rob, because i feel like this has been completely about him and not about our 'journey' together. i've been fighting myself, because i want to hate it here so badly even if it is beautiful and my house is so cute and we're making memories here. and i've been fighting God, because i never know why He does things like move me half way across the country, away from my family, away from my friends, away from home, and not let me in on why. When i was home (in Texas) God and i got along a lot better. i didn't question as much about why things were, i just accepted that they were because God is bigger than me and that was it. Today I thought, 'God why are you fighting me so much...' and then my jaw dropped. since when do i have the authority to be so self-centered? Why is He fighting ME? who is it i think i am? I tell you one thing, i am not I AM. i wake up every morning by His grace, not my own. i am out here, because He knows what's best for me and what's best for us. it is not, and has never been that God is fighting me, oh no, He has not changed and will not change from state to state or country to country it is me who is fighting Him. If anyone has changed it is me, and it was not for the best. why would i waste my time and energy fighting what is out of control? why would i not let God do what He does best? you know, let Him create and direct and guide and show and bless and protect and all of the other things He promises He would do in the good book. from this day forward, with grace and patience, i will try harder to get out of my own way and let God do what He has done for the past 21 years. Whew!

my mom's coming!

my mommy is coming to visit me in two weeks! I'm very excited! It's almost a four day weekend here on the base. that may sound exciting, but not so much. Rob wants to go to San Fransisco, but we are going there in two weeks to pick up my mom. we are getting our $ from the theiving that happened in Vegas this weekend so we could pay off the credit card... or go shopping! yesterday we went to the monterey sports complex and swam all day. I know what you're thinking, 'kasey, you live next to the ocean. swim there.' but you think wrong. the ocean is freezing. it might as well be alaska it's so cold. so we went to the pool and did laps for an hour and a half. and then the fun began. they have a slide that is like 2 stories tall that goes into the pool. rob was knocking over kids to get on it as many times as he could. the boy went on it at least 10 times. it was pretty cool. it's $11 for both of us and you can stay in the pool the entire time or you can go play basketball or lift weights or go use the machines. it's a really nice place. there is a sunning deck where we dried off and got a little color. i can't wait for my family to see me! i've gotten a pretty color just from walking around out here. and we walk all the time. and we live on a hill that's about two miles high. not so fun for a fat girl, but i guess i won't be a fat girl for long with all this activity. we'll see. the lady just won both showcases on the price is right! what a great show. Rob says we can go there for my birthday! you'll have to watch for me! and give me ideas for a shirt so that i can be picked. i should probably be cleaning, but i think i'm going to go bake a cake.

the unpacking is finally over. well it's never completely over. the movers are coming back today to pick up all of the boxes and paper and junk. and if we're being honest, I still have a few boxes that i haven't gotten around to. but i'm way too busy today. today i'm going to get my business license! or apply for it at least. there is a farmer's market here every tuesday where people come and take over the main street downtown and traffic shuts down and everyone sets up booths to sell their goods. some sell produce, some jewelry, some crafts, I'm selling cookies! hopefully next tuesday i'll be a legit. business woman! as opposed to my last job... any ideas for names? rob likes "kasey's" he says keep it simple. I liked "kaseypie's" but he brought up a good point that I don't really make pies. let me know what you think.
my mom is coming out here in a month! that's pretty exciting. of course that means i may have to clear my busy schedule of watching the price is right and clearing out those last boxes. we'll see. and then in july i'm coming home to see my beautiful niece! Aunt Kasey loves Maelie!